I haven't had as much free time as I'm having this holiday for ages and I'm finding myself to be quite reflective. Maybe my schedule is too busy in Portsmouth.
Having time with nothing to do seems like a new thing for me and I'm not sure if that's good or bad. On the one hand it's nice to have free time and not have this and that to be doing etc etc, but on the other hand I really like making the most of every minute so having time 'to kill' is something that I'm not comfortable with. I've only got one life, I wanna make the most of it and squeeze everything I can from it, not for me but for His glory.
I wonder about having me time. I quite like having things to do with my time that lead to other outcomes - sorting things for the Christian Union, getting coursework done, earning some money or just plain building good, deep, meaningful friendships with people I know - but time to just veg and do nothing I'm not so big on.
I want to make the most of my free time this holiday and do what matters. I put some films on my laptop but I only really want to use those when I'm travelling on the coach/train and I really can't do anything else. I don't wanna spend my holiday as a couch potato. It's been nice visiting old placements and seeing people, but catching up only goes so far and I could probably have done what I've allowed 2/3 days for in 1 day. It's slightly true of home too, there's only so many people I can catch up with before I've run out of things to do, I have some Uni work to finish but I need to make sure I get some time to rest and be away from that as well.
So I wanna try and push myself to invest as much time and energy I can into the relationship that matters most - spending serious time in prayer, worship and the bible in my free time.
Let's see how it goes eh.
Friday, 18 December 2009
Thursday, 10 December 2009
It's only been a year
Welcome to my blogging habits:
- use the blog for several weeks in a row.
- Have no time/forget and don't use it for a year.
- Come back and carry on.
A lot can happen in a year though. And a lot has.
In some ways I wish I had documented it. It's really interesting to come back and see what was on my heart and mind a year ago and how things have really developed since.
I can't sum up the last year, too much to cover. Key parts would include being Vice President of the Christian Union and all the joys and struggles that that has been.
God has really been working through me and giving me new outlooks and lessons and although I always find it hard to highlight how I've grown over a period of time I know I have.
Without being able to go into detail here's some things:
- Giving me an eternal perspective - what's the point in doing, saying, buying, etc anything if all it does is maintain something of the status quo here on earth. The only things worth using our time and resources is on is that which will have an impact on eternity. The best illustration I got for this was from John Ortberg - You wouldn't decorate a motel room you were staying in for a week, so why spend all your efforts on things in this life when it's so temporary?
- Showing me my arrogance - this is related to starting in leadership in CU and how I thought I knew everything I needed to do and what would work best instead of being teachable and letting God, and those wiser and more experienced than me, help me out.
- Challenging me to speak out - it's not enough to just have people know that I am a Christian - I need to be someone who declares the Gospel.
I could probably go on if I racked my brains but (as usual) this post is probably too long already.
I'll do what I can to remember to put updates on my life and walk with God.
- use the blog for several weeks in a row.
- Have no time/forget and don't use it for a year.
- Come back and carry on.
A lot can happen in a year though. And a lot has.
In some ways I wish I had documented it. It's really interesting to come back and see what was on my heart and mind a year ago and how things have really developed since.
I can't sum up the last year, too much to cover. Key parts would include being Vice President of the Christian Union and all the joys and struggles that that has been.
God has really been working through me and giving me new outlooks and lessons and although I always find it hard to highlight how I've grown over a period of time I know I have.
Without being able to go into detail here's some things:
- Giving me an eternal perspective - what's the point in doing, saying, buying, etc anything if all it does is maintain something of the status quo here on earth. The only things worth using our time and resources is on is that which will have an impact on eternity. The best illustration I got for this was from John Ortberg - You wouldn't decorate a motel room you were staying in for a week, so why spend all your efforts on things in this life when it's so temporary?
- Showing me my arrogance - this is related to starting in leadership in CU and how I thought I knew everything I needed to do and what would work best instead of being teachable and letting God, and those wiser and more experienced than me, help me out.
- Challenging me to speak out - it's not enough to just have people know that I am a Christian - I need to be someone who declares the Gospel.
I could probably go on if I racked my brains but (as usual) this post is probably too long already.
I'll do what I can to remember to put updates on my life and walk with God.
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